I'm bored, but only because I feel I have to limit the amount I play World of Warcraft.
I had to tell my boss what "ergo" meant today.
My speakers are crazily bassy, to the extent that I could barely hear the singing over this new-to-me bassline that shook the whole house. It's not even particularly turned up. Brilliant.
Getting back to the dork inside me, my WoW character is awesome. I'm kick-ass at healing and casting protection spells, I can smite people (literally, my attack is "smite"), I can cause lightning bolts to rain down on all who oppose me and I have some wicked-bad dark magic. He's starting to look alright, too: light blue robes and a big ol' staff.
I was feeling very contemplative this morning, thought about how insignificant and meaningless pretty much everything is. It's weird how much people care about things. It's weird that people care at all, sometimes. But then, I care because I was raised to.
Even if some form of nuclear war broke out (heaven forfend, I'm enjoying living, regardless of how pointless it is) and humanity was wiped out, the earth would keep spinning and orbiting. And the earth is fucking tiny compared to the sun, let alone the solar system, galaxy and beyond. Yet we fill our lives with our activities and emotions, as though we are fulfilling some sort of purpose. Then again, it depends how you look at it; our purpose, in some sense, is to propagate, which involves finding a partner that's suitable, with which comes love, heartbreak, and (in terms of forming a habitable community) friendship and work. So maybe we are filling our purpose perfectly. Then again, maybe we should be able to do it without destroying the world.
And another thing: how come humans are smart? Evolution. Evolution is the changing of a species over time to better suit it's surroundings. But we didn't change to suit our surroundings, we changed to use our surroundings to alter our environment... I think I'm getting confused. But lions evolve to be fast to catch prey to live another day. We evolved to be smart enough to figure out that we can exploit resources. I guess what I'm trying to get at is that humankind seems to be some sort of fuckup of nature.
OR MAYBE God made us like this so that we could worship him as we destroy what he built... Yeah, "sure, burn down the home I built for you, as long as you get on your knees before me!"
All this bollocks about how everything good in the world is from God, but all the fuckups are a result of humankind's flaws and the devil and so on... If God was really so great, couldn't he get rid of this Satan character? And couldn't he have made us a little more perfect? No, 'cause then we'd be equal to God, and he wants to feel like a big man.
Perhaps there is no God, maybe we're just a pile of carbon that congealed together by coincidence and evolved? Nah, couldn't be. The odds of that are like a billion-billion-billion-to-one, and EVERYONE knows that the universe isn't just finite, but also quite small.
Having made that sarcastic comment, I think the universe probably is finite, but the space around the universe may or may not be infinite (though that's quite irrelevant) and there's probably several "universes". I mean, a universe is just the result of an exploding singularity (in layman's terms, I think), so why was there just this one singularity sitting in the middle of nowhere (literally)?... I really need to read more books on Physics and stuff, or I will totally not keep up on my course this year (WAHOO, it's this year!).
Well this has been long and pointless, but I've enjoyed letting my brain-goo stream for a while, I'll have to do it more often.
Definitely going to re-read a brief history of time and the universe in a nutshell, what else should I get?
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Everything by Dawkins is worthwhile. I prefer Penrose to Hawking.
Richard Dawkins: The God Delusion:
"In my interview with Watson at Clare, I conscientiously put it to him that, unlike him and Crick, some people see no conflict between science and religion, because they claim science is about how things work and religion is about what it is all for. Watson retorted: 'Well I don't think we're for anything. We're just products of evolution. You can say, "Gee, your life must be pretty bleak if you don't think there's a purpose." But I'm anticipating having a good lunch.' We did have a good lunch, too."
Cook yourself a good steak.
Thomas Nagel - The Absurd
http://hugohadlow.googlepages.com/absurd.htm
"But a role in some larger enterprise cannot confer significance unless that enterprise is itself significant. And its significance must come back to what we can understand, or it will not even appear to give us what we are seeking. If we learned that we were being raised. to provide food for other creatures fond of human flesh, who planned to turn us into cutlets before we got too stringy—even if we learned that the human race had been developed by animal breeders precisely for this purpose—that would still not give our lives meaning, for two reasons. First, we would still be in the dark as to the significance of the lives of those other beings; second, although we might acknowledge that this culinary role would make our lives meaningful to them, it is not clear how it would make them meaningful to us."
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